Don't really know what's got into me recently... It seems like there are lots of thing gonna happen or happening in this year. Life have been pretty stagnant in a way that I kinda of take it as part of my comfort zone and let it sink in the way as it is.
Having the chance to travel to Europe is really amazing! There is lots of things I would like to share and keep it as a written memories. However, after illustrated and repeated quite a few times to a number of friends, writing it in my blog seems to be a little redundant. I guess thats me... Perhaps I might do a little summary when i "suddenly" have a urge of posting, not forgetting the pictures as well =) Else.. it will be something (as a written memory) that I am proud to be participate in.. just like my US trip during my secondary days =)
This trip has definitely built and strengthen my independency and a little of my self confidence. Not so sure if its due to this fact, I was kinda of being notice by "someone".... To be honest, I'm really pretty reluctant to be under the lime light again... after two years plus... My confidence level was over thrown into the deep well when I'm being asked to go on a one to one outing. Suddenly, words like "brother", "younger" or "older" seems to be bubbling out from me - trying to draw clear lines between friendship and nothing more. Is this a verbal sign of self-defense? Or afraid to be hurt? I'm not sure for myself either. God... having the same direction and understanding of what "you" have planned should alway be a foundation in a couple to bond them together. However In times, what I expect and what I see seems to confuse me with the plans that you have.
Anyway, guess I will take a step at a time and see how things goes. Currently, I will try to act on the following Calling from "him" and things that I got To do:
(C) 1. Guard my heart and set my line of boundary for a pure heart.
(C) 2. Guide my brother to lead in a different "Foo" family habit
(T) 3. A change of job this year - Either an education sector or Marketing
(T) 4. A sudden reminder thru JK Bi bi - Take extra care of my mother, bring her for check up and spend more time with her,
Well... I shouldn't procrastinate it any longer...
Cheers! XO XO
