My Aurora Notes

Slight Changes

2010-04-13T16:14:00.005+08:00

Don't really know what's got into me recently... It seems like there are lots of thing gonna happen or happening in this year. Life have been pretty stagnant in a way that I kinda of take it as part of my comfort zone and let it sink in the way as it is.

Having the chance to travel to Europe is really amazing! There is lots of things I would like to share and keep it as a written memories. However, after illustrated and repeated quite a few times to a number of friends, writing it in my blog seems to be a little redundant. I guess thats me... Perhaps I might do a little summary when i "suddenly" have a urge of posting, not forgetting the pictures as well =) Else.. it will be something (as a written memory) that I am proud to be participate in.. just like my US trip during my secondary days =)

This trip has definitely built and strengthen my independency and a little of my self confidence. Not so sure if its due to this fact, I was kinda of being notice by "someone".... To be honest, I'm really pretty reluctant to be under the lime light again... after two years plus... My confidence level was over thrown into the deep well when I'm being asked to go on a one to one outing. Suddenly, words like "brother", "younger" or "older" seems to be bubbling out from me - trying to draw clear lines between friendship and nothing more. Is this a verbal sign of self-defense? Or afraid to be hurt? I'm not sure for myself either. God... having the same direction and understanding of what "you" have planned should alway be a foundation in a couple to bond them together. However In times, what I expect and what I see seems to confuse me with the plans that you have.

Anyway, guess I will take a step at a time and see how things goes. Currently, I will try to act on the following Calling from "him" and things that I got To do:

(C) 1. Guard my heart and set my line of boundary for a pure heart.

(C) 2. Guide my brother to lead in a different "Foo" family habit

(T) 3. A change of job this year - Either an education sector or Marketing

(T) 4. A sudden reminder thru JK Bi bi - Take extra care of my mother, bring her for check up and spend more time with her,

Well... I shouldn't procrastinate it any longer...

Cheers! XO XO

Why do some people have higher sex driver?

2010-03-30T11:59:00.002+08:00

Came across this forum about "love and relationship" when someone asked about if one has a high sex drive but still love her gf who do not like sex at all, is it worth to have a diff sex partner in order to maintain the relationship with the girl that he love dearly?

From a girl point of view its definitely, a NO NO answer. Its just totally unfair, going for a diff sex partner just to satisfy one's desire! But from the guys point of view (where its a norm that guys use a different "part" of their body to think rather than their brain), the relationship will definitely becomes stagnant and break off might be the end result...

But how do you named yourself as someone who is high sex drive? Is it a in-born thingy or just a personal desire / habit? I found an explanation and solution for those people (Men) who categorize themselves under this category...

There are numerous reasons to why ppl have high sex drive..

Example like:

- long lasting hunger for a partner (being alone for a long period of time)

- unhappy with partner's performance (applies to both genders)

- porn addict - wants to try out all different pose learn from show..

- curious about why people around him/her keep discussing about sex making the inner desire explode

- always horny thanks to numerous fetish and dirty thoughts in the mind

>>To reduce your high sex drive, get to understand your inner self, your body needs, high sex drive is just a result of lack of love and understanding of your true self.

P.S: It's not healthy to always have high sex drive as this will translate into stress for your partner having to cope with your needs so learn to reduce it gradually

as for your partner not having any desire in sex, try talking more in-depth not about sex but rather into her doors and heart about views on her past relationship, upbringing and even sex education and knowledge, any negative experience and unpleasant stigma that she may have causing her to have near zero interest in sex.

If that don't work, than it might be due to her not being too tensed up, muscles too hard, can't relax, offer a simple massage with clothes on over time to smooth her mood and feelings (no sex til she accept the flow of order first) just before sleeping and after waking up.

if all the above still don't work, than ask her to play with herself and show it to you so u get to understand the way she likes it first so u get a understanding on what to do next..

Communication is a important part.

The key is: to understand yourself and your partner from inside (heart) out and not only from the outside.

Extracted from Shopping lifestyle - Author "the_Fallen"

Interesting huh...

Cheers,

XO XO =P

The forsaken blog

2010-03-04T19:06:00.002+08:00

I am back in blogging after... 7 months!! Opps! Realize I am really bad in blogging (or should I say lazy...).

Updates:

Dec - Got back my unexpected result! Scored 1 Distinction and 1 Credits for my last two papers. Officially, I'm a Bachelor graduate now!!

31 Dec - 01 Jan (New Year Eve and New Year) - Had a fun 2 day 1 night at batam with my secondary school gang. Hopefully, we will have another outing but I guess I will NOT be the organizer the next time round.

14 - 17 Feb (Chinese New Year) - Went visiting at Granny, Cat, JH and Cat's friend place. Gamble for 4 days straight and end up losing more than 80 bucks =( This year is not a good year to gamble I guess.

03 March 2010 - Sent my naughty brother off to China. He is really lucky to have this opportunity to do his exchange in China for 1.5 months. Why didn't my era have this options... I will definitely miss him... miss the times of him being bullied =P

Upcoming:

15 - 24 March - My Switzerland & Paris Trip!!! At last the trip that I have been waiting for. Initially, Irene and Michelle are on my top list who did agreed to travel with me but due to unforeseen factors and circumstances etc... both of them had given up the idea.I really thought for a while, should I go?? Friends are always my energizer! I hated so much to eat alone or even shop alone, never in my wildest imagination that I will go for an oversea trip alone... But YES, I'm going ALONE!

Had being planning for my itinerary nearly a month! It's really nervous wrecking, lots of issues and planing needed to be done. In addition, I'm really bad at navigation and map reading... really hope I can survive and do enjoy myself. This is really a good opportunity for me to learn being independent, widen my horizon and totally rely on GOD! Hopefully, all the negative experience or tales that was fed to me would NOT happen in this upcoming trip.

Will do my updating as time goes...

Cheers!

A Character Change

2009-08-21T11:33:00.002+08:00

Had a very frank conversation with Jiao yesterday that lead me to an emotional fluctuation. Didn't realize that my character is a tripping stone, a barrier, a hinderance in my growth. Being sort of a well-protected and complacent since I was an adolescence till young adult, it have crave me into who I am now. It really makes me wonder, didn't I have plan enough? should I leave my comfort zone? why am I easily being affected by my surrounding? is being happy-go-lucky a mistake??

I guess human need to grow in every stage of life and it is a must to GROW and LEARN, be it happy or sad, good times or bad times.

God had once again, shaken my thoughts.

Awaiting to see a brand new Sherry...

* + * * + *

Lazy...again...

2009-08-13T09:55:00.006+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Lazy bug stuck on me again... There are quite a number of event that happened for the past few months - Taiwan trip, Wendy's wedding, SEG corporate dinner, Pris and yi's birthday dinner etc . Anyway, should anyone be interested to know what's going on during the event, view my facebook for details ;)

Hmm...Im one leg stepping into 1/4 century of age. Dear lord, what will be my next path?

I hereby, wish Sherry a lovely happy B day and a smooth sailing road in her life. May god be part of her life in every little things that crosses her path.

Cheers ^^

Chill up time

2009-05-29T15:22:00.010+08:00

Its end of May soon... Will be starting the next half of the year le...

So... what have I achieved? *Sigh*

Anyway, I am quite surprised that I have more than 3 entry for this month!

1. I guess cause I know there is reader?

2. My life becoming more interesting?

3. I am no longer a lazy bug??

4. I have too much free time to blog?

Whatever the case is, I am starting to get the hang of blogging =)

Met up with Denise last Friday for a chill up session after prayer meeting. She was so amazed by what my samsung phone could do that we spent our whole chill up session taking pictures in all sort of angles, expression and layout!

I shall let the photos describes our flaky moments ^^

The tall vs Short. Guess which is mine?

Our beef steak burger *Yummy*

Add on to its savory look !

Me and Dennis ^^

The right way to taste a good old latte!

Yum yum^^

"The woman with great dreams" - photographed by Ms Sherry

Trying to act cute and blur@@

Shots of our life story... 1, 2, 3, 4...

Moments of Xi Nu Ai Le

Happy ladies!

Last photo of the day and home sweet home =)

Cheers ^8^ ^8^ ^8^

Overnight Cycling Event

2009-05-21T17:56:00.007+08:00

Went for an amazing night cycling event on 15 May 09. It was a tiring yet fun time.

We reached around 9pm for registration, pick our bike and started our journey at 10.10pm. Total there are around 70 odd people joined the event! Tried changing my bike twice but still end up having the squeaky hand break.

I was a little shocked when I got hold of our route trip map:

Sun Plaza Park (Tampines) -> Changi Village -> East Coast Park -> Marina Baarage -> Sun Plaza Park.

It was really my limit, at a certain point, I really felt that I don have anymore energy to continue. However, guess what had motivated me to push myself - Suave cyclist? Good Food? Nea, it's seeing one of the organizer's shirt printout "Breaking the limit". Whenever I see those word its suddenly gave me a boaster of energy to continue till the very end. Amazing how words can turn into wonder!

One of our cycling kaki fall and injured herself when we were on our way to the second pit stop (East Coast Park) but still she determine to continue till Marine Baarage (even though the event medic asked her to rest and call it a day). I'm impress with her determination.

In the midst of the journey to our 3rd stop point, never would I expect that we got to cycle on Nicole highway =P (I know its illegal but who cares at 3am!) You could really take your time to appreciate the scenery of our Singapore central business district. I could see the flyer from a miniature figuring to directly beneath me. Regret that I didn't bring my camera out!

To me honest, my weakest point thru the journey was the HUGE Kembagan slope. I really start "chionging" quite a distance with every ounce of energy that I could generate but end up still stuck at in the middle of the hill =( Got to get down and push me bike up. BUT what frustrate me most was, there was this girl who is fatter - okie bigger size than me could cycle all the way up the slope. I bet she is laughing at me LOL.

Exactly 6am we reached back to our starting point and I am so glad that I have completed =) (With pain butts and thigh)

After which, me, pris and Jia hao went to have a good Mac breakfast and Jia hao send us back to end our more than 24hrs sleepless day.

I will definitely go for such event again!!

Starting of our journey...

See the no. of cyclist behind me

Dislike the safely helmet =(

The gal who got injured yet had strong determination!

Pris's schoolmate who completed the track too!

Pris and the unsafely JH^^

End our day with great achievement =)

Cheers ^O^ ^O^ ^O^

Sentimental feeling in songs..

2009-05-14T17:29:00.003+08:00

Pretty bored in the office today after clearing the load of work that was piled during my exam leave.

Therefore, decided to surf U tube for songs. Came across two songs of 罗志祥 - 搞笑 and 小丑鱼, love the melody of the song (especially 搞笑). Each of the song somehow illustrate my feeling for the two guys who had once came into my life.

There will always be a song that tells my story and describes my feeling.

So... which song is telling your story right now?

Cheers =P=P=P

End of my 4th Semester...

2009-05-11T11:29:00.005+08:00

Exam is finally over!!!

Should I count myself lucky or unlucky?

Lucky - My GM (global marketing) scored 43.7/50 for our project! - direct HD!

Super unlucky - With my short-term brain compartment, the CLEVER me decided to chose topics to study (16 chapters are damn lotsa of information). And the one chapter that I din studied CAME OUT! (12 out of 50 marks).

ARGH!!!!! I need to pass this exam......

PLS.... got to pass this GM paper. God! I really need your help!

Haiz... Cross finger and pray everyday =P

Alright. Enough of the negative side. Its time to give my tributes and thankfulness. Here I am, would like to list out the people who cross my path and show kindness.

Have been camping at my grandparent's place to study for the past few days (I am sooooo lucky to have them staying near me). It have been a blessing to have them my maternal grandparents who keep the bonding of the family tree together.

1. Grandpa - Knowing that the extended room could become a sauna when night falls, he repaired a small fan for me to keep me in a cooling mind - The Greatest Grandpa

2. Grandma - Sweetest of all! Thot she could be pretty (or should I say very - same as my mum =P) naggy in times but she never fail to exhibit her motherly instinct.

Ginseng tea to brace me up , cookies and tea for brunch and nutritious soup for dinner (Where to find such study corner!)

My friends...

3. Mr Panda Goh - Came down all the way from home to Ngee Ann to guide me with my price & market module(although I somehow did bribe him down =p) and accompany me to study till 10 plus - Thanks so much for the effort!!

4. Mr Chiam JH (whom I always mistakenly call him Mr Chim) - He had been a pretty good study kaki, talk cock kaki and makan kaki for the past 2-3 weeks of mugging period. Picking me and sending me back home safely at the end of the day - I really appreciate =) Thank Q!

5. Gal Gal Cat - Thot she's always at the tip of being " mang" but nevertheless she will find time to check on me and have meals together =) - Galfriends 4ever!

(*Applause and Bow)

Cheers,

=O=O=O

Detest...

2009-04-21T16:53:00.001+08:00

A sudden urge of sighing and rattling...

Detest being a grown up

Detest being the eldest

Detest not being independent enough

Detest not being rich

Detest not being smart

Detest making decision

Detest Detest Detest

Being carefree and unmindful has been flowing in my blood for the past 24 years. Right now, every steps I have to give tedious consideration before making decision and its not just a decision that like going overseas or studying or even a short-term commitment of just 3-4 year but its a long term commitment and decision that definitely have an concurrent impact and might affect my future decision.

To be honest, I really hate to make decisions! Although my starsign "Leo" is a decision maker, a leader but I'm totally lack of that caliber.

Could anyone answer me the 5W and 1H qns?

I need positive ions and news badly!!!

X0X0X0

Ps: I need to give attribute and thankfulness to Rox (my church bestie friend) who really show the good side of humanity, reaching and stretch out thoughtful hands w/o second thoughts. Thanks anyway, I appreciated ^^

I believe "He" is good and have my path crave for me =)

Disappointment...

2009-04-16T13:07:00.002+08:00

Bad and Sad day!

Just heard from my agent that the house that we wanted (I even start imaging where my bed should place and which room are we taking) had been SOLD!!

Super sad super demoralize, my head felt really damn heavy. Its the first time in my life I felt the burden on my shoulder is too much for me to bear... Having to think about the flat's Evaluation price = how much monthly installment can my CPF sustain and COV (cash over value) = how much those damn owner wants to mark up their price (even when their flat looks like a wrack!). Going through viewing of flatssss, analyzing the location, the E.price, COV and disappointment on unit that just cant fill our criteria just keep pouring on me.... Having the pressure on moving out to prevent anymore conflict between my aunt and US really wears me out...

Never want to face the music with family burden had ended... Raining days have come and will be dreading on. I knew this will be coming but I guess bits of unpleased news could just perturb my emotions gland.

God, please lead us out of this crisis and outshone with rainbows!!

KK. Have to start digging my notes and books! Sherry buck up, you have an exam coming, start MUGGING pls!

Right now my motivation is found the right flat and TAIWAN trip! ... taiwan trip! taiwan trip!

*Watching 17 again with my siblings later to distress , hope it will be good ^^

Cheers OXOXOX

My relationship theory

2009-02-26T14:03:00.006+08:00

Another month have past...

Having said that LOVE is really the most unfathomable theory in the universal. Recently, having surrounded by friends encountering break ups and being in loved. Gal friend of mine who have been constantly in love with this guy and at last got reciprocated with what she deserved. Yet another gal friend who was devoted to her bf but yet he did stuff that hurts her badly. Got to know another guy in school who loved his gf a lot yet initiate a break down due to individual's life expectation.

There seems to be no rules in a relationship. You might find this loving couple that seems indispensable today but realize their change of status to 'single" the very next day. All human have flaws, understand the 5 love language is essential, to express our love and to understand others - Words of affirmation, quality time, gifts, act of service and physical touch.

To me, Act of service and quality time is pretty important. I could feel loved when someone offer a service to me, be it a small one (perhaps just purely lip service) or hefty amount of help. On top of that, quality time is something that have to be run concurrently. Meaningful and enjoyable time spend with my loved one and friends is what I look forward most. Even just a cup of coffee over gossip or confession or a great gathering or crazy partly, you would find me pretty 'endu'!

Sorry for the longwinded sherry's theory but I believe you should know me slightly better by now =)

*Side track: Super looking forward to the other half of the year!! (I know its only the end of Feb but I just have this sudden excitement!) --- Revision of my pay in September, the final semester of my studies, a break away trip (crossing finger) , hopefully more commissions for september and last but no least - The starting year of 2010 to snowee SWITZERLAND!

XOXOX

*Wink*

Happy Chinese New Year !!!!

2009-01-26T10:53:00.004+08:00

Ding Dong! Ding Dong!

Merry Christmas! Happy new year 2009 and Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Its blogging time after 4 months =) I guess, currently my_aurora becomes a forlorn blog that no one bothers to look at it.

Hmm... I am fine with it. Perhaps, I could write a more in-depth and Emo thoughts of mine. ^.*
Earlier in the day, thoughts of "Boi" (a name which I thot it was forsaken) comes back. What has he been doing? Still with that xiao mei mei? Thoughts of him grew much deeper when the cab pass by Kovan on my way back home after our marketing dinner at East Coast yesterday.

The cab stopped right beside the "spot" where we last seen each other as a couple, scenes starts to flash back to the 08 August 2007. Melancholy mood was with me for a while till this morning only, I guess, afterall "time" has been the key to lighten the scar but it will definitely be a scar that live on in me...

Did a friendster browsing and indeed they are still together. No comment on them. I just wish that God would continuously shower his love on me with true friends, harmony and blessed family and "the one" to be appearing soon who will honor him as well.

Have some backdated pics to upload and events to blog so stay tune!

Last report goes to BB!

2008-09-29T18:51:00.008+08:00

Last Thursday was the final report for this semester that I have submitted - Buyer Behavior. This report have significant impact on our overall grade, 40% of the module.

And to celebrate our last lecture of the semester as well as the hardwork of everyone's effort for this BB project, Trisha suggested pot-luck feast in between our 15mins tea-break. We had awesome brownies, slice carrot cake (brought by Pris), sweet tasty desserts (brought by Trisha), mini cupcakes (by Janice), yummy Mr Bean pastry and pancakes (by Cindy and Angela) as for me I brought my favorite after meal snack japanese rice biscuit.

All this luscious food for only the 6 of us! or should I say seven include Pris's husband (who brought the food and waited for Pris to end her class - so sweet of him).

Being overwhelmed by the Dove project, we drafted a 4000 word report to 8000 words, 1 weeks before the due commences! All of us had a hard time cutting down each others work by half as every details seems essential.

Anyway its over! But I'm really glad to have them as mine project mates and enjoyed working with them. Its my second time doing a project with this team (except cindy - our newly joined member).

Thanks Ladies! Had to give exclusive tribute to 3 of my group mates - Trisha, Cindy and Pris who put in great exertion for the report. Looking forward to High Distinction!

(Starting from Left bottom: Priscilla, Cindy, Angela, Sherry, Trisha and Janice)

The day of Truth

2008-09-19T13:28:00.003+08:00

"Await" has always being a glimpse of hope. But it is time for me to walk out of that circle, the circle that does not belong to me anymore.

There is no reason to lie , perhaps you might be too ashamed to own it or perhaps its just a white lie to you.

Regards of whatever reason you have... its shall not matter anymore...

All the best.

BGR - Version 2

2008-09-19T00:23:00.011+08:00

Apologize for the lag of updates.

Was busy rushing for reports + the lack of manpower keeps me REAL busy. Yap! You did not hear me wrong... my work indeed keep me so busy that I have to do OT!

1 sherry doing 3 roles! But not getting 3x the pay!

Alright, enough of whining...Its a good thing that everything started to get back on track.

Just bid goodbye to my old friendster blog. But before that, I did a recap thru my entry and I found this, the very first post “BGR” (which I don’t even have clue that I once wrote) that I penned down on 15 April 2005.

“
Life has always its ups and down…

Example: Most of the relationship cant really last very long. I have quite a number of friends (couple) broke off after 4-5 years of their relationship… reason is always like "No more feelings for each other anymore","Our lives is like a daily routine", sometimes when 2 pple being together for too long, one will tend to take things for granted. So try to cherish yr loves one around u, occasionally give a little surprises or show a little ‘VISIBLE’ care and concern for one another, make the relationship always in a ‘honey moon’ period!

My childhood friend onces told mi that if a relationship (gf & bf) can last more then 7 years together, means the critical period is over. But i think as long as your love bonds for one another is strong nothing could break u guys up…

Wish aLL CouPles" HaPPiness "

“
Firstly, I would like to take back my word for stating that “if a relationship can last more than 7 years together means critical period is over”. J (another childhood friend) had proof me wrong and indeed its really WRONG. A relationship for nearly 10 years, is not even comparable to those moppets! What aspect do they have? "Young? Youth? Tender? Sweet 16th?! J is a beauty and was one of the most charming friend that I ever befriend with. Plus they are of the same age, 23! Yet Guys just don't appreciates and go for infantile child! I guess this is the recent trend!

Sorry if I sound perturbed but I just find it unacceptable.

If there is a love insurance, the fate will be far more horrendous then AIG!

It is really a bless that she is happily in loved again =)

Feelings can be really vulnerable and frangible. Human tend to use that as their first conviction which could either lead a trail of repining or pain.

However, Everything happens for a reason and I believed “HE” will give me the best outcome for that reason.

Yawn… its 2am already!

Nite nite =)

Self Challenge!

2008-08-08T12:09:00.007+08:00

To all friends out there Happy National Day!
= additional leave for working adults =)

Being companionable in nature, there is never a time where you will find me eating alone in a food court, shopping alone by myself the whole day or doing anything alone. I would rather starve myself to death or miss out all the good stuff then to be a loner.

Today, I will take up a challenge to date myself - WATCHING A FRIDAY NITE MOVIE ALONE!

I bet a lot of you will like "Chey!, Big deal!" but how many of you did that before? To me, its really a dare.

Knowing that I will be buying A ticket later and watch a 6.40pm movie ALONE at Cathy, starts me trembling. Hope I will not be a cold turkey before the show starts. =*#

8 Aug 2008 - Reminiscence, Misses, Memories... Bygone.

A new beginning of my mundane day!

DBI 0206 Class Chalet - 2008

2008-08-04T14:12:00.014+08:00

Shall upload some past event that happen last month (Our poly class chalet). Alright... I know, always updating event that happen donkey years ago.

Anyway, I'm really glad that this gathering occurred =) although it might not be a complete one but I would say its a successful one! Thank you ladies, your the best. (You might wonder why would I thank only the ladies? The photos below says its all).

Lazy piggies preparing to get out from bed @@

@Escape Theme Park - First to start off "superman ride"

Me & Shuhui

Yiyun & Irene

Jiao & Cheng

Like all Singaporean like to do "Queue up" for rides

Smile at the camera to cover the our fear *.* (Jiao seem to look scared)

The bumpy "chu chu train"

Invertor

Evening, Back to the chalet to get our BBQ started...

Not forgetting to pose of course =)

Jiao with her blacky fingers, arks!

Last but not least our class photo!!

(Attendant shall be given for those we came late or left early - Nigel, Deguang, Yuyun, Addison and Edwin)

Cheers to DBI0206 ^^

Backy-Back!

2008-08-01T15:14:00.006+08:00

Its time to breath some life into my blog with some update, after neglecting "my-aurora" since its birth! Rather desolated as I got to be reminded by panda,"Hey, updated your blog already?" to make known that I still have a blog exist. Pathetic!

Emotions and events that I wanted to share just lingers in my mind thru my hectic schedule. Time seems to be compressing with work, tuitions, school, packing, projects and more projects. These had compel me to end my last tutoring next Wednesday. I did enjoy teaching for the past two months and does sadden me to end this so abruptly after building up amiable relationship with my student. Its a shame for me, not being able to walk her through her up coming CA test. All the best Shermaine!

In fact, I got to admit that this is what I wanted. Engaging in various tasks to keep myself occupied and productive. However, at times in life, the harder you try, the harder it will gets.

Read a post from somewhere (hope I did not get it wrongly) which is rather true to me.

"
One second to pass-by someone
One minute to get to know someone
One hour to have feeling for someone
One day to fall for someone
One year to spend a good time with someone
A life time to forget the special someone

"

A life time to forget the special someone...

Okie! Got to really buck up and prepare for the long term project battled!

For friends who are still concern about me and since mid August is coming soon... hehe. Information below (wishlist) might give you a rough idea of what to get!

My new diary address

2008-06-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

My new blog was created!

At last...The thoughts of having a new blog was injected more than 6 months ago and it was executed today!

Was wondering if I should dispose my enteries from friendster into this new diary or should let the memories that I once treasure be bygones?

Any takers for opinion?