Detest...

A sudden urge of sighing and rattling...

Detest being a grown up 

Detest being the eldest 

Detest not being independent enough 

Detest not being rich 

Detest not being smart 

Detest making decision 

Detest Detest Detest

Being carefree and unmindful has been flowing in my blood for the past 24 years. Right now, every steps I have to give tedious  consideration before making decision and its not just a decision that like going overseas or studying or even a short-term commitment of just 3-4 year but its a long term commitment and decision that definitely have an concurrent impact and might affect my future decision.

To be honest, I really hate to make decisions! Although my starsign "Leo" is a decision maker, a leader but I'm totally lack of that caliber. 

Could anyone answer me the 5W and 1H qns?

 

I need positive ions and news badly!!! 

X0X0X0

Ps: I need to give attribute and thankfulness to Rox (my church bestie friend) who really show the good side of humanity, reaching and stretch out thoughtful hands w/o second thoughts. Thanks anyway, I appreciated ^^

I believe "He" is good and have my path crave for me =) 

Disappointment...

Bad and Sad day!

Just heard from my agent that the house that we wanted (I even start imaging where my bed should place and which room are we taking) had been SOLD!!

Super sad super demoralize, my head felt really damn heavy. Its the first time in my life I felt the burden on my shoulder is too much for me to bear... Having to think about the flat's Evaluation price = how much monthly installment can my CPF sustain  and COV (cash over value) = how much those damn owner wants to mark up their price (even when their flat looks like a wrack!). Going through viewing of flatssss, analyzing the location, the E.price, COV and disappointment on unit that just cant fill our criteria just keep pouring on me.... Having the pressure on moving out to prevent anymore conflict between my aunt and US really wears me out...

Never want to face the music with family burden had ended... Raining days have come and will be dreading on. I knew this will be coming but I guess bits of unpleased news could just perturb my emotions gland. 

God, please lead us out of this crisis and outshone with rainbows!!

KK. Have to start digging my notes and books! Sherry buck up, you have an exam coming, start MUGGING pls!

Right now my motivation is found the right flat and TAIWAN trip! ... taiwan trip! taiwan trip! 

*Watching 17 again with my siblings later to distress , hope it will be good ^^

Cheers OXOXOX